Shara Chalmers Personal Prophetic Word-East Coast Welton Academy Summit
Sarah means “Mother to the Nations” and I feel like you are in this radical season that before you’re going to step into the fullness of your call, it’s time for you to love you. And I just feel like the way you were raised wasn’t just religious, there was a part of it that was spiritually abusive and I feel like a lot of your parent’s disfunction in their marriage, I feel like you got leveraged between them, so it made you feel like you had to be your dad’s PA and your mom got mad at you about it, instead of actually being thankful, (she) was jealous that you had favor. I feel like there were layers of abuse you went through and even sexual and I just feel like, it destroyed you and I feel like working for Jonathan has been so amazing for you because it’s been seasons of restoration but I feel like the Lord is saying “ Miss Muffet, Miss Muffet, You sit on a tuffet and do nothing.” And it’s like, you’re so sweet and so willing to serve everybody but I feel like the Lord’s saying, You know when Jesus came to John the Beloved and He was like, “Would you let me wash your feet?” I feel like Jesus wants to wash your feet. And I just literally feel like it’s hard for you to receive because you feel like your value is in giving, but you’re the gift. Like I see this ridiculous vision, like have you seen Charlie and the Chocolate Factory where they have oompa-loompa’s and stuff, but I see you with this huge ball and God’s like you are MY gift. It’s not your gifts, it’s not your administration, its not your servanthood, it’s not what you can give and what you can do, it’s literally like your heart is the gift. And I just feel like the Lord is healing layers and layers and layers of just pain and I feel like your husband is the first safe place in your life but I feel like because of what you went through as a kid it’s affected your marriage a little bit where it’s good now but it wasn’t at first, because you were up and down. It wasn’t your fault! You had trauma you didn’t even know about when you got married. I feel like he’s been so steady, but he has a lot of shame too.
I feel like the Lord is going to…your husband is really open, but he’s been hurt. Like he’s okay with you working but he doesn’t feel included and he feels left out and he kinda feels like, “What, did God choose you and not him?” and it’s been almost divisive this job. Like he sees it and blesses you but its like why is it that Jonathan can give you that and he can’t, and it’s been very painful for you because you just want to bring him along, but financially you can’t. And so, it’s been very hard, and I just feel like the Lord wants to do a breakthrough in your marriage. I film for the marriage ministry, actually Gabe films with me, and I feel like the Lord just wants you to come and get ministered to. Cuz you’re so powerful, you’re so gifted, but you need to love you. You love everybody but you and there’s still this root of self hatred that comes from being abused where you thought that somehow it was your fault, but it wasn’t. It wasn’t your fault at all.
I get it, my family was unsaved and crazy, and I went through similar trauma and I’ve been in inner healing forever. It’s gonna be really good for you, I want you to check out nothinghidden.com, its November 6-10th, You guys can come stay with us. I think it’s 500 dollars for two people and you can drive there. You’d have to take the whole week off because it is intense but it will transform your marriage. But it’s mostly so your husband receives ministry. They do it multiple times a year so you could also do it in February, but you want to do it with my spiritual parents, the Byrne’s. Your husband needs it, I mean I feel like this is putting pressure on your marriage and he’s gonna snap. He’s very patient and kind and mellow, he’s great for you, he’s perfect for you! He’s such a good guy but, he feels left out and God doesn’t want that. Does that make sense? I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through.